Figure it Out

I’ve been waking up each morning before the sunrise to beat the traffic and making it to work thirty-minutes early. Why? because I plan ahead for the each day — make time to watch the morning news while I put on my make-up, get dressed and style my hair must always style the hair. I make time to put myself together, to care about myself and make myself feel good right as I leave the house — starting each day inhaling life.

It is incredible hard, sometimes annoying trying to figure out my purpose as this becomes my every day routine. How can I do more? Do I need a new pair of shoes? How can I make today even better than yesterday? I’m feeling complacent — How do I get myself out of this rut? Part of me as been consumed by society’s norms — go to school, get a job, get married, have kids, blah blah blah…so if I don’t follow this order, I must be doing it wrong, I must be a failure…

Forgive me, I’m figuring out. If you know what the equation to living an amazing life… TELL MEEE. I WANT TO KNOW.

I was not given a blueprint or a guide to navigate in this world. I’ve been figuring out from the time when I learned EAST TO WEST and walking past a cemetery each time just to buy a bag of Hot Cheetos, not feeling spooked what-so-ever. I just had to figure it out and that still hasn’t changed! I learned to keep moving forward but sometimes, I catch myself taking a glimpse of the past —I just a human with feelings, forgive me for forgetting to breathe.